I don’t know what is next, and I love that

These videos have been life changing for me.

I am finding my Why to do something, something I love, something that gives something good and positive to the world, instead of focusing on the How or the Money. On just focusing on the HOW, I’ve been stuck,with blinders on, trying to figure out how to do it, instead doing things I love, and instead doing things that just made me money but didn’t feed my soul. I didn’t put myself first which if I do then can put positive things out into the world. Like attracts like.

I am still processing. I have been watching these talks, doing guided meditations with videos from Noah Levine and Tara Brach and I feel like I’m changing profoundly. I am noticing that I do things differently now, ever since I quit and spent the 2 months in the rv on the road. It changed me in small ways.  I need less stuff to live, letting go of things I cannot change, seeing things as they really are, things don’t rile me up, I catch myself being in my ego when I talk and do things. Being okay with the way things are and who I am.  I have a long ways to go still, but it is incredible and scary and good. I catch myself giving myself excuses to not do something. It is all in my head, I get in my own way, and I see it now. I am writing things down like crazy. Quitting that job and the corporate world was the best thing I did for myself. I will not go back. I am on a different path now, I am on my own path. I don’t know what is next, and I love that. I am excited for that. Have to stay in that and not get scared and let my ego give me excuses to be afraid and small and feel like I need to find a job, any job or the next Thing, or whatever. To stop trying to plan everything out ahead of time other than the few necessary logistics, like how to actually get to a place or something. Haven’t figured out teleportation yet. lol

The Buddha said “Pain is a given, suffering is optional.” also, I heard “if something/someone feels heavy, move away from it and let it go, if it feels light and positive, go with it, embrace it.” I am learning to get out of my head and into my body and heart and see how something feels inside and to listen to it, the body, the intuition, to get quiet so I can hear and feel it, and then do it.

I felt for some reason I had to share it. Thank you for listening.

I love you, you are awesome.