Embracing change and not knowing anything

They say “The best-laid plans of mice and men often go awry”. No matter how carefully a project is planned, something may still go wrong with it. The saying is adapted from a line in “To a Mouse,” by Robert Burns.

We are not in control.

It was a blessing in disguise that I happened to feel the pull of the ocean.  The storm rolled in, driving wind and dumping literally buckets of rain on the RV and I discovered that the skylight in the shower leaked like a waterfall in this deluge.  Glad it happened while still in Oregon and not in Nebraska or Texas instead.  Needing to get it repaired under warranty and a few other things repaired that popped up while on this shakedown cruise, I called the repair shop at the dealership in Bend to set up a day to get it taken care of.  Unfortunately, they can’t get me in until June 27th, a whole month delay for my cross country trip plans.  With that turn of events, and the weather getting hotter and hotter in the southwest and south, I decided I will postpone the rest of my trip until fall when the weather starts to cool, all the kids are back in school and all the repairs are complete.

So we roll with the changes, stay open to the unknown.  As Kyle Cease says “fall in love with the unknown”.   I try and plan things, but stuff happens, and I have to adjust, go with the flow.  A whole new way of being, after being a single mom for so long who had to keep all the plates spinning for 3 humans and 2 dogs for a long, long time.  It is strange, unsettling and so freeing all at the same time.  But I think I like it.  I am learning to say Yes more often to fun and change when it comes my way, because I can. Whereas before I always felt the need to work more, plan things out, sacrifice for the good of all, put others first before myself oftentimes.  I feel the nervous energy dropping away that had me feeling like I had to always be busy, always be doing something.  It is replaced by a calm, a slowing down to smell the flowers, take long dog walks, and just observe the world around me.  I’m cool with the way it is.  How else can I be?

So while I wait for the repair date, I vow to meditate more, journal more, live in the moment, worry less, and be outside as much as I can, and play.  I can’t wait to see what happens next……

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